Monday, February 28, 2005

Feeling funky

And not, as DBF would say, in a good way.

The last week or two I have found myself increasingly disinterested in my own life. Work just isn’t gripping me anymore; I can’t be bothered to put in any effort. When I get home in the evenings I frequently find myself just sitting on the sofa starting into space simply trying to put any coherent thoughts together. Don’t ask me to make a decision about something, it’s just not in me.

DBF is starting to get a little worried now. I’ve been quite clingy to him all weekend. At first he joked about it asking me what I was after, but then he realised that all I really was after was a cuddle and some tactile reassurance.

Every now and then I will perk up a bit and start to do something but I’ll quickly find that it’s not going well and I’ll be back in the dumps again. When DBF asked me what was up the only words I could find to explain my mood were apathy and ennui.

As an example, yesterday in a perky moment I decided I was going to start stitching Futurecast. This is a design that outright encourages you to use your own colour scheme and gives you instructions on how to do so. I’m no stranger to changing colours on a design so I thought I could cope with this. First off I had a small piece of overdyed fabric that I thought would be nice to use for this. I have loads of overdyed threads so all I had to do was pick one I liked that would work with the design and the fabric. Well that stage took quite a bit longer, but I picked one in the end, not my first choice but that wouldn’t have gone with the fabric at all. Then you have to pick 3 ranges of threads in colours based on the colours in your overdyed thread, simple right, noooooo.

That’s where it all started to go wrong. I found the first two sets of colours quite quickly, but the third is supposed to be something that contrasts with the first colour and yet that you can find in you o/d thread. Well after about an hour of squinting at the o/d thread and the DMC shade chart my funk was back in full and everything got put away. Then I spent the rest of the evening vegging in front of the T.V. 100 Greatest Cartoons (hardly brainiac material)

So this evening I’m going to try again on Futurecast, this time with my first choice of o/d thread and plain white fabric and see if I get any further.

However I’m still feeling blah so I ask you all to bear with me, I may not post as frequently as normal for a while and I don’t have a load of pre-written material to entertain you with. I will be back in full swing just as soon as I dig myself out of this hole I’m in.